Library of memories. Storage of stories.

Akhirnyaa bisa juga nulis post d kantor :D jangan mogok lg yaa,,
Here's so much life story I want to write down,

 ♪          Ku pastikan takkan ada yang mampu ♬
 ♫         Mencintaimu seperti diriku ♬
 ♩ ♬      Walau nafas harus terpisah dari ragaku ♪ 
 ♬ ♪     Ku tak akan berhenti, ♬
 ♬        ku tak akan menyerah tuk mencintaimu ♬

Baby I love you 
And I`ll never let you go  
But if I had to  
Boy I think that you should know
All the love we made
Can never be erased
And I promise you that 
You never be replaced


I love you 
Yes I do
 I`ll be with you 
As long as you want me to
Until the end
Of time

From the day I met you
 I knew we`d be together 
And now I know that
I wanna be with you forever 
I wanna marry you 
And I wanna have your kid 
Thinkin` never compare to the 
Feelin` of your kisses 
I can say I`m truly happy to this day 

You make me thank God  
That I live my life everyday 
There`s never been a doubt
In my mind 
That I regret
 Ever having you by my side 
But if the day comes
That I have to let you go 
I think there`s something 
I should probably let you know 
Boy everydayThat I spend with you 
And I will miss you cause 
I`m happy that I had you at all

I love you Boy
yes I doI`ll be with you 
As long as you want me to 
UntilThe endOf Time

*ngantuk*
apa ya,,bingung mau bilang apa..
susah pacaran sama orang yg belum move on.
makan ati!
ato guenya yg kelewat sensi?ntahlah.

masalahnya klo kita bete terus yg dibetein tau penyebabnya, minimal itu krena dia mkirin hal yg sama kan ya?
brarti dia tau apa yg bikin gw bete,,apalagi dia nanya mulu "yakin pegel?" brarti kan dia tau gue gk sekedar PEGEL..tp tetep aja loh diterusin itu hal yg bkin gw 'pegel'.
apa banget deh ni org >.<

dan brarti dy jg msh inget sesuatu dibalik lagu itu..buktinya dy tau itu bkin gw bete,,klo emng dy uda gk ada gmna2 pas dnger itu lagu,dy gk bakal ada pkiran klo gw 'pegel' gara2 itu lagu geje.
kenapa?msh inget2 mbok jamu lo?
gih sono balik lagi!
daripada gw engap.
cinta itu mempertahankan.
iya emang iya..
kaya lu pertahanin si mbok jamu di hati lo.
pertahanin kenangan2 indah lo sm dy,
yaiyalah,,mana bs lupa kenangan seindah itu,
perjuanginlah,
lo kan jago banget tuh perjuangin cinta lo.
gih sana,,daripada makin banyak korban untuk bantuin lo move on.

kpan sih gw bisa bner2 ngerasain cm gue ada di hidup lo.
dari pagi ke pagi lo sm gw?iya emang.tp yakin pkiran lo jg di gue?
who knows lah ya.
rasanya pngen kembali ke 28november, dan tidak mempermasalahkannya.
krna smpe sekarang gw gk yakin lo ngelakuin itu tnpa sedikitpun feel something.
dan sejak saat itu gue gk pernah bener2 yakin, I'm the only one for u.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkk..benciiiiiiiii inget itu,,tp tiap kali ksalahan lo nyerempet ke mbok jamu ke masa lalu,,gw pasti inget itu!
gw gk pantes benci masa lalu lo, tp lo juga gk pantes bawa masa lalu lo ke hidup gue.

yauda,,lupain dia ato lupain gue.
ya pasti lupain gue lah,uda kebukti dari sebelom2nya.
sapa coba gue. nothing.

Bahkan hati pun tau,
kapan harus bertahan dan kapan harus pergi.

Thinking about go away from you, it's just like kill myself.
Even just thinking about it, I can't
I do love you.
So much love you
but sometime, you make me feel like I'm not the one you want
I'm not the one you need.
I'm not the only one you love.

Gk tau apa namanya yg lg gw rasain skrg..
yg pasti rasa ini gk enak.
bkin gk tenang mau kerja.
gw butuh sendiri.
bukan untuk meyakinkan diri
tp untuk menenangkan keadaan..
klo smua bakal baik2 aja..
nothing change..
we will happy, always happy.

I'm so sorry
This situation couldn't happen if I didn't do that 'useless thing'
ngapain coba ngelakuin hal gk penting dr org yg sangat gk penting.
dan ngapain juga gw bs kemakan itu tulisan murahan yg gw gk tau kebenarannya.
padahal satu2nya kbenaran yg gw punya itu ada di elu.
harusnya gw ngikutin hati gw,prasaan gw buat gk ngelakuin itu.
tp gw malah ngikutin nafsu gw buat pngen tau sgala yg gk penting.

Gw gk tau knpa tb2 keinget itu
gw uda bisa lupain itu dgn smua pengorbanan elu,dgn semua kebahagiaan kita.
Tp gk tau knp pkiran itu tb2 dtg.
Dan gw sakit.
Gw pngen tau
wanita sprti apa yg bs bkin lu lbh mlih nemuin dy, dripada mkirin kcewanya gw.
lu tau kan gw bakal sakit,gw bakal kecewa klo tau ap yg lu lakuin, makanya lu gk mau kasitau gw,
tp lu lbh mlih ngelakuin itu, lbh milih gw sakit daripada dy yg knp2.
Gw sakit inget itu.
Tp rasa cintagw ngalahin rasa sakit gw :')

dan saat gw uda bisa prcaya lg, you broke it again.
ngapain msti sibuk mkirin dy. mau dy hanyut kebawa banjir juga yauda, just let it happen lah.
gk usa peduliin.

mungkin bner, I won't feel this pain if I'm not with you.
mungkin.
tp yg pasti gw gk bakalan ngerasain bahagia yg blm prnah gw rasaain while I'm not with you.
itu pasti.

Thursday.
Not a beautiful morning.
Not as beautiful as two days ago.
Don't know what to do.
All I want to do is just disappear.
Disappear from his life.
Disappear from his heart.
There's no reason to stay anymore.
There's so much reason to leave.
I'm tired.
So does he.
Tired to hold on this situation.
All I want to do is leave.
Leave all about us.

I'm sick.
So does he.

I'm hurt.
So does he.

Just one big thing I want to do.
LEAVE.

I'm tired of his manner.
So does he.

I don't know, what still makes us survive.

I don't wanna hold you.
I'll let you go.
Go to your happiness.
Wherever and whover is she.
I'll let you find her.

Find someone who understands you
Someone who loves you sincerely
Someone who faithfully accompany you
Someone who received either your bad
Someone that can make you feel happy just when you beside her or just thinking about her.

Go.
And find yours.

I'll be happy with my own way.
I'll be ok, even without you.

Sorry for all difficulties that have come to your life along you with me.

I'll go.



-written on "Someday in March"- 

Dear God,
Thx for bring him to my life.
Thx for give love between us.
Thx for let me feel the love again.
But please, don't let me feel the hurt anymore.
And I'm sure I won't.
I love him so much.
Even there is tears in our days, I know that's prove of our love, prove of my love.
Doaku :
Berikan aku kesabaran menemaninya.
Berikan dia kesabaran untuk menuntunku.
Berikan kami kesabaran untuk menjaga cinta kami.
Biarkan kesabaran itu habis bersamaan dengan habisnya umurku.
Thx for our beautiful days :')
Thx for let July 21st 2012 be our day.
Please keep him for me as You save me for him.
So much love for my ES :)



Love,
AR